As I tore another sheet of paper out of my crisp yellow note pad, I was asked by a friend about how many sheets of paper I waste. I looked at my friend and I really thought about it. Anyone who knows me, or better yet, anyone who has been given the chance to have a meeting with me or hang out with me knows that I’m a writer and that I write old school style. Paper, pencil, no pen, nor any of those sissy style whimsy mechanical pencils. I go raw with it, equipt with the original. Ladies and Gents, I have my pencil, pencil sharpener and paper. Oh yeah, having one’s pencil gliding on a crisp sheet of good writing paper. It’s good for the soul. Any true writer of the old ways will agree! But when asked about how much paper I waste? I have to say I think it’s shamelessly a lot of paper. For me, I don’t like to erase a misspelling and I don’t want to. I just simply don’t like a messy paper of erased ideas or thoughts. So I just rip the paper out of my sight. It’s no longer in my vision, nor is it any longer a part of my essense.
It’s gone, usually like the women of my one night of passionate adventures.
Have a night and then just move on. I love writing as much as I love sex.
Why would I want to redo a sexual move or try to restart the date? That’s the same way I feel when writing. Why erase and rewrite the same crap over? Nah, not my bloody sheet of crisp paper. My choice of paper has always been a yellow note pad, but when I’m feeling risky I go for the pink note pad. I believe in waiting and taking my time in thought as to what I’m writing about. The same way I’m with a woman sexually. I take a glimpse at what kind of positioning the woman in front of me is doing. And luckily to say, I’ve had my share of unique positions. Still I’m proud to say that I’m happy with the woman I’m with right now. A woman who gives me the greatest position ever. No position can be better than being accepted as I am. So to answer the question about how many sheets of paper I’ve wasted, my answer is as many as it takes. My thoughts, my pencil, my paper. Good writing Ladies and Gents…
Everything humanity has ever created began with a thought. The place where you live, the clothes that you wear, and the Facebook which these words are allowed to be written on these called notes. Were once only a thought in someone’s mind. Your decision to read this, too began with a thought. Happiness shapes thought…
So thats what I like to think about, such as everything we think is colored by our happiness, or lack there of. Although individual definitions of Happiness vary greatly, we all want to be happy. Early in life, we look for happiness among family, friends, even in Marterials.
Later in life we look for happiness in religion, money, sex, alcohol; Some even through education, while other’s marriage… We all know where we have looked. But truely did we know what we where searching for? Openness Manifests Happiness…
I seem to be wanting to do things or better yet say things simple today. I dont want to go into such harsh details of why i think my life sucks for the moment. In other words I dont want to simply bitch just to bitch.
I see now that I do have many friends on here and in so ummm i think it’s; time to see who relates to my sort of thought process. To a great extent, the people whom I have chossen to associate influence the direction of my life. Which I must thank for all the enlightenment, due to thier thoughts and beliefs. I have become stronger within myself. I think and behave within my boundaries of beliefs. Which to many might think Omg someone save that poor lad! But I have figured out or better see that the key is to fulfilling my potenial without anykind of limitations.
I know understand me, my desires are the same for me as my will power to move forward. From my sexuality to spirituality. I know now that If i master my beliefs I master my mind.
I have learn so much about myself , espically my weakness. Which is just going off the freaking mouth and ripping whom ever walks into my path. Yet I have learn much from my friends on here, Lecia Smiley Wint, Goddess Trudyann Ewan, JoJo Meadows, Haze Dead Vegas. These are just some of the people who have been through my madness and seen the crazd ass brit going off on the world. Actually Jeannie Engel Paparone is someone new who; i have brought to my world she is making me healther in body. Which makes me more fit in the mind and spirit which makes me stronger in the soul as well. I have lost two really good people on here friends such as Misty Gaddy and Rochell Robbsion, two awesome ladies, and well nothing i can bloody do about it now. I See now the two sides of the coin ,which can be distinct yet inseparable, my live has a physical, tangible dimension and spiritual, which is a intangible one.
For me it is, many might say we differentiate between body and and mind. But logically look deep into it all it’s fundamental level, the Mind, Body, Soul, Heart and Spirit are inseparable. For those who might be shocked to see me writing this, let me simple it for you, if your in need of more than fucking someone, start holding his or hands it’s a bloody start. If your in a emotional stats with him or her, make it a physical one, making love to just fucking, you choose. It’s not fair for one to get one while the other isnt geting anything out of it. Women you are really good at doing this to men. lol I know, enough is enough. There need to be a balance. Danielle too sassy figure it out, I don’t want to go over this anymore i love you. I need balance! I always believed one should develop a broad compassion that reaches beyond your surroundings and extends to those you care about. My mother taught me to believe in noble men and women and learn from them. I also believe in wisdom of other’s but when can learn from within i believe one is enlightened. To open ones mind is to simply think of possibilities. So this is where i stand and believe in… This is where I go and move forward. Much love to everyone.
Just as the two sides of the coin as distinct yet inseparable, our lives have a physical, tangible dimension and a spritual, intangible one. We may differanitate between body and mind, but at their most fundamental level, they are inseparable. Sometimes I wonder did I do the right things to get where I’m at? Should I or could I have done it another way? The answer is simply of course I could of. Would I have been HAPPY? I dont know, have no concept of what could of been. I thought being on the course of let go of whatever holds you back. But what if it’s your children, or husband, or wife; Then what? I was once told A person writing at night may put out the lamp, but the words he or she has written will remain on the paper. It is the same with the destiny we create for ourselves in the this world. Now I understand the saying the closer you stand to the light house the darker it gets. One thing i understand now is that there has never been, nor will there ever be, a life free from problems. It is not the presence of problems but how we tackle the quality of our lives. Hmmmm i guess it’s true to those who maintain a clear sense of purpose in life are strengthen by hardship. Until next time ladies and gents… be well… keep focus…
“I’ve always been about freedom of expression. This is the reason why I became a Photo Journalist. The radio talk show is a bonus. No wait, honestly being a Resident DJ at The Art’s Factory was the bonus!”, said Mr. Black Tie happily. His residency at The Arts Factory recently ended. But with a smile, Mr. Black Tie spoke highly of the infamous spot where a majority of artists and poets frequent. “I met so many cool people while I was spinning there”, which is funny for Mr. Black Tie, who has a two and a half hour show called Liquid Rain Drops. His choice of music for his show is Erotic, Wordly and Tribal. “I’m a very sexual kind of person, so I play that type of music alot on my show.I mean, bloody hell, I do a show about relationships and shit. My Facebook relates to my show! Drama!!!”, yelled Mr. Black Tie. I, myself have listened to Mr. Black Tie’s show, Liquid Rain Drops. It’s crazy high energy and it can be very intense from sexual advice to music. “I’ve only just recently got into the world of Djing! I’m talk radio which means I’m a radio personality.Being a DJ is different! I’m just a year old in my Djing career! My first gig was at Rumors Boutique and Hotel. I was learning how to DJ right on the spot! I was once going by The Fashion Chef (Ugggh!). I was just leaving another station called YBS Radio where I was doing a show called Fashion in the Kitchen. Before that I was doing a show called Coffee Grounds on KLAV 1230am on Saturday mornings. It was good times! YBS Radio… Well, when I was at YBS Radio, it was very stressful at times. Boss yelling and well I was in a bad relationship. I lost my fiancee (Nicolette Savant) then at the time i messed with one of my co-hosts who went by the name Debbie Little on the air. It was a bloody mess. I never would have imagined all the drama it would cause and it did! Shit happens. Well, after all that mess, I got into the Djing world and I was going by the name Mr. Black Tie. I also brought back up my old morning show, Coffee Grounds which is on Caffeine Radio. But I wanted to do more, so I created Liquid Rain Drops. It’s more personal and sexual. It’s not for everyone unlike Coffee Grounds which is about the arts and family thing. Coffee Grounds is more settled and tame. Liquid Rain Drops is about the wetness as we Brits say! But don’t get me wrong, I love to be settled yet I need balance as well. This is the reason why I prefer to spin Tribal, Erotic and Eclectic styles of music. But when I was a resident dj at The Arts Factory , I was spinning jazz. That’s what the owner wanted so that’s what he got! As I said, I met some wonderful people throughout my four month residency there. Especially the group called Flameology.These Ladies and Gents spin fire as well as dance in harmony to whatever is playing. I my- self got to DJ for them while they performed. Of course I was spinning Tribal and a little Dubstep”. Mr. Black Tie’s voice lowered and calmed down as he finished talking about Flameology. “I’m going to miss them all, not that I’m never going to be back there, but I need money”, laughed Mr. Black Tie, “I gots to get paid to spend money on drinks! But when I fig- ure out my next residency, I will go back to The Arts Factory! I gotta, I love that place! For me it was an honor to have been there that long. And I have to admit, now I listen to Liquid Jazz. So I have a new style of music to spin to. I always thought my residency would have been Hooter’s Hotel for some reason or even at The V Bar. I never imagined Djing at The Arts Factory!”, said Mr. Black Tie getting excited once more.The Arts Factory is really one of my favorite spots to chill out at. But I want bigger venues also. I want The Artisan, Insert Coins, Beauty Bar, Krave, even the Royal Resort but my dream spots are Project at Mandalay Bay and Hard Rock Cafe! A guilty pleasures spot, Lady Silvia’s, it’s a really cool ass little spot. I really don’t know what’s going to happen right now, except for one thing- I don’t plan on quitting any time soon”. And with that, Mr. Black Tie tipped his cup of coffee towards me with a smile and said, “The adventure continues…”.